Geez Oh Pete!

I shall apologize in advance about my lack of posting...things have been getting a little crazy around here and the extended forecast is calling for oh so much more! The F-ing deployment, which is how I am now referring to it, has been moved up by six months. I am really not dealing with this news very well and I am not the least bit excited that I am having to do this again, but whatever. It is going to happen whether I like it or not and after reading a rather poignant quote today,
"When we can do nothing, Jesus can do all things; let us enlist His powerful aid upon our side, and all will be well,"
I am feeling a wee bit better. It is funny to me that I always hear people say, "it takes a strong woman to be a military wife," "it takes a brave woman to let her man go off to war." I get so sick of hearing it, especially since as of late, I have found myself thinking it takes an idiot to be a military wife! We do this to ourselves on purpose! And for what? The big bucks? The glory of being alone day in and day out with our precious kids while their father misses out on everything that truly matters? I truly am not in a good place with accepting the fact that this deployment is rearing its ugly head and once again I will have to rely on emails and IMs to chat with the one person that matters the most to me and the kids. I am sad. I am angry. But I am strong, and have amazing friends that are going through the same issues as me, family that keeps me laughing and the goal of holding my head high while my man walks off that tarmac and back into our arms! I also have the knowledge of a past deployment that will help aid me in better decision making, only stressing on what truly matters and not letting others project their issues on me when I will clearly already have my own! As well as two precious babies that will keep me busy, stressed and laughing through it all. Plus, the good Lord to oversee it all and keep me brave, strong and focused! I can do this, I just really don't want too.